Mother’s Day

“Mothers and their children are in a category all their own. There’s no bond so strong in the entire world. No love so instantaneous and forgiving.”―Gail Tsukiyama

I don’t know if it’s because Mother’s Day is tomorrow or the fact that all three of my children turn one year older this time of year, but I am a mess.

It’s 8:30, all three kids are asleep and I’m stalking my own Instagram feed filled with – wait for it – 1,811 photos, almost entirely of them.

I also probably shouldn’t tell you that I have 11,663 photos on my phone and need to increase my iCloud storage. 

Again.

It started with Cullen. He broke my heart by turning 4 a month ago. He looks quite happy about it, doesn’t he?

I swear his baby fat was gone overnight and replaced with insanely long legs. He’s still a baby. Some might say I’m in denial but he just is. 

Then today we celebrated Draven’s 7th birthday. 7 is officially big kid. Like “I really don’t need your help Mom” big kid. 

But he’s not actually 7 until Monday so I’m holding on to that. It just makes me feel better.

I’m really bracing myself for next month though, when the precious being that has captivated our entire family, turns one.  

As if it weren’t enough that I will have a 7 and 4 year old, Storie Rose will now have a full year of life. 

 Tears are running down my face now so that’s all I have to say about that. 

I do so love watching them grow and learn new things and develop into such interesting individuals but some days it is just plain hard. 

I second guess everything I’m doing and wonder if I’m teaching them enough. Am I teaching them the right things? Am I being too hard on them? Expecting too much? Am I feeding their souls and preparing them for this crazy, messed up, wonderful world? 

But then I remember that both of my boys told me I was “the best mom in the entire world” tonight before I turned off their light and I look down at Storie lying right next to me and know we are right where we are supposed to be. 

Man I love being their mom. 

Happy Mother’s Day! And sorry for the shameless post used as an excuse to look through my pictures and smile and laugh and cry.